Five years… That’s 1,825 days. 43,800 hours. 2,628,000 minutes. 157,680,000, seconds. All that time and my heart still aches just as much as it did the day you left me. They say time heals all wounds, but that is far from the truth. Sure I’ve smiled, I’ve laughed, and I’ve loved but there isn’t a day, hour, minute, or second that my heart isn’t missing you.

Five years is a long time to be away from someone. It’s enough time to forget about things, big or small. There are many days where I struggle to remember the sound of your voice. There are days where I struggle to remember what you looked like before the cancer ate you away. There are days where I struggle to remember the things you loved to do after a long day at work. But no matter how much time goes by, I will never forget how amazing of a mother you were. You were the kind of mother that always put her children first. The kind of mother who had after-school snack ready on the table for us even when the cancer was unbearable that day. You were the kind of mother that prayed for everyone else when all of the prayers should have been directed to you. All in all, you were an incredible human being. It’s so hard to believe that it’s been five years already. I pray that you are with me everyday and I hope that you are proud of the person that I am today.  I miss you every damn day, mom. Although Heaven is lucky to have you up there, Heaven was on earth before you left.

R O S I E

nov 19, 1967 – may 8, 2012